(those are the days on which I miss you most.)
(those are also, coincidentally, the days that I go back and forth between houses.)


I just wanted to say, before I go tomorrow, that I currently have
109 Deviations, 26 Messages
and they're only going to pile up.
I tried, I really did, but you guys are so crazy active I was buried faster than I could dig. I'll be behind for a long time...

Today I learned that I am loved. (again.)
It's not the kind of love I've been missing so much,
but it IS the kind I have waited and longed for
for four years.

I don't know if those kids know how much it means to me
to know that they love me half as much as I love them,
but let me just say
knowing that makes me happier than I ever believed I'd be.

everyone else is a memory.
I am a friend.
I am a feeling.
I am a family member.
(I suppose am also a memory.)

everyone else still exists as a ghost.
I still exist as a reminder.
you are loved, you are loved.
(I am loved, I am loved.)

in other news,
these things take my time and energies
don't stand too close without apologies
cutthroat, cut out candid glimpses, and
wind me up, I'm ready

I remember being inside something more than you.

I can put up with a lot. I can't put up with a lie, which is what you gave me, Shipwreck Eyes. I'm finished. You may do whatever you like from here on in, just remember to
[not] stand too close without apologies.
because I remember being inside something more than you, my dear, and this something was something I can definitely go back to.